It’s a beautiful holiday morning. The sun is just drying the dew on the green grass. The breeze is getting warmer. Sinatra’s ‘Young at Heart’ is playing in the background. Gabriel is taking his morning nap - or more like extended sleep, Chard is fixing the floor tiles and I am in the garden hand-sewing curtains for the lanai, feeling the occasional thump from the little angel growing inside me.
It’s like a scene from those southern black and white movies. I stop to take it all in. It’s so serene. It’s beautiful, this is beautiful. What makes this perfect is that – more than happiness – I am at peace.
The last time we went out was to treat Gabriel for his birthday and that was a month ago. Except for work and that quick ‘Breaking Dawn 2’ trip to the mall, we always stayed home even on weekends. If this was the case a couple or just a year ago, I would have been very bored, itching to go out, nagging Chard to take us somewhere. Well, it’s probably helping that we only have enough money in the bank after bills to get by. J
I had my fair share of traveling, partying, the glitz&glam if you will. And yes, those were fun and exciting times. It’s nice to experience those every once in a while now, but surprisingly, I don’t really miss those days. I miss the moments with my friends, of course, but I still get to see them every now and then and I still get to enjoy their stories. I am at the receiving end on their juicy scoops J and I am perfectly fine with that.
Before getting married, I vowed not to become the typical boring housewife who does not know how to have ‘fun’. I didn’t want to become how my mom was when I was growing up, contented with staying at home cooking food for the family, doing house chores etc. Funny how I become a little bit of that. Who would have known i would be into the DIY stuff, or keep copies of recipes i tried/will try, much less be a homebody. But the ‘me’ now is so loved by my husband, and Gabriel seems to be ok with it. But most importantly, I am quite happy and contented with it.
I didn’t mature or become more responsible, I think. I just found something I really love doing. I think I found my happiness and peace. Life is beautiful, indeed. ♥
